For those who care, I'm still living the exact same lifestyle I was a few months ago.  For those who don't, so are my kids.

The other day, I was obsessing about my own ability to pass an accounting test, and almost decided to just up and quit, thereby denying myself the same superior education and social interaction amongst peers that I have denied my children since the day they were born.  Then I decided to stick with it, after all, I deserve the very best even if they don't, the squalling little ankle-biters!

But it got me to thinking. (About me, of course.)  One of the biggest missteps I've done in my life is to show my face around here again.  I have no shame, no sense of accountability to the people I've lied to and screwed over.  I don't want to be a child neglecter, it's just, I've gotten rather proficient at it.  I'll leave it to you to figure out that it's just not a big deal to me.

When I last communicated with JoeUser, I admitted to my neglect, the life of hunger and squalor I've subjected my six children to while I wasted countless days blogging,  my gluttony, my screwing over of elderly people who had reached out a hand of kindness when I was in need.  But I've also hinted at the existance of mysterious information that would explain it all, information that would clear my name and make me look better in your eyes.  I've claimed it exists but I refuse to share it with you, so there!  Anyone not willing to believe that I am blameless and good just because I tell them they don't know 'the whole story' can just piss off, you've been blacklisted along with half of JU.

I'm not perfect, and have never professed to be.  Unlike the rest of you, I have had the misfortune of having my filthy, disgusting, and totally self-centered lifestyle broadcast over the internet, a casualty borne of being stupid enough to accept a helping hand from another blogger's family when I was homeless and desperate.  My mistake was not neglecting my family or forcing them to live in a polluted trash heap overflowing with rat shit and rotting garbage, but in being CAUGHT and confronted about it.  I do not intend to change a thing, but letting any of you know about it is a mistake I won't repeat!  I'm dysfunctional, so that makes it ok.  And I have once again found a church that I will wax poetic about until they too sense something is terribly wrong in my home and begin to ask questions.  Then I'll turn on them like a rabid pit bull, writing hateful screeds about anyone concerned for the health and safety of my children.

You guys believed a LOT of photographs in the big article, and that's all I will say about that.  I'm not over it, (and thus I am writing this article) but as I have contended before is that mysterious information exists to prove a lot of it false.  I refuse to recognize that I've already been called to answer for it, so I won't.  And I've blacklisted anyone who might remind me of that.

In my early years on JU, I spoke about dealing with depression.  I find it both sad and telling that not one of you, (including our resident fried chicken fan) could have seen through my bullshit and known what was going on prior to the posting of the photos which proved it.  How dare you not know I was subjecting my children to life in a house of horrors!  How dare you not feel sorry for ME, and MY depression, limiting your concern to the immediate safety of my young family members.

I was not aware that a qualification of a writer must be that they put the needs of their half-starved, poorly educated, socially isolated, medically neglected and unbathed children first....or at least ahead of their obsessive need to blog.

I do have apologies to make but not to any of you who were shocked at my betrayal and lies.  I was shocked to discover that the $500 I offered as hush money wouldn't even begin to cover the damages done, and hey, I know I got almost $9000 in income tax refund, and can look forward to another $4000 in May (via Bush's economic stimulous fund) but if I had offered a penny more my family would have been living in the truck and wouldn't have even had BEANS to eat!  Not like they haven't lived this way before, loser that I am...but hey, the GOOD news is that those I've traditionally despised are no longer on my blacklist, I gotta have someone to interact with here, right?  Remember, it's all about me.  Trust me on that.

This is the last I will write on the matter.  And that's another lie.  I'm really hoping my appearance will spark a huge firestorm of controversy, and to be honest, the only reason I am here is because Draginol referred to my gazillion articles as 'often insightful' and that's all the encouragment I needed to awaken my ravenous ego and entice me to come back.  He may as well have sent me an engraved invitation!  Besides, Karma mentioned that my blog shouldn't be listed in the 'leading users' section since I skulked off with my tail between my legs after being exposed for the disgusting human being and child abuser that I am.  Remember, it's all about me,  so I'm back!